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life, work, and starting over.

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Working at a startup for two years was a crash course in, well... everything. I had the chance to work under two leaders who couldn’t have been more different—and I mean that in the best way. One came from a consulting background. They were sharp, detail-oriented, and had this intense way of pushing everyone to dig deeper, do better, and really think things through. It wasn’t always easy, but I grew a lot under that kind of pressure. The other leader? Total opposite. As long as I delivered what was needed, on time and done right, they left me alone. No micromanaging, no surprise expectations. It gave me space to figure out how I worked best, and I appreciated that freedom more than I expected. Somewhere between those two approaches is the kind of leader I hope to be one day—someone who knows when to push and when to trust. Right now, I’m feeling good. Life has slowed down a little. I get to spend more time with family and finally focus on the things that actually matter to me. I’m lear...
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back after a long pause.

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  it’s been a while— like, almost four years kind of while. Life definitely did its thing. In that time, I spent two pretty intense years working at a startup. It was the kind of ride that teaches you a lot—some amazing highs, a few cringe-worthy lows (yep, already forgiven and forgotten), and a whole lot of growth in between. I didn’t plan to go silent this long, but here we are. And honestly? I’ve missed writing. So this is me getting back to it. No pressure, no big promises—just a renewed itch to put thoughts into words again and share the ride as it comes. Let’s see where this goes.
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Managing expectations.

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 Manage your expectations and you'll manage your disappointments. - Todd Lohenry I tend to expect too much. I tend to expect people will understand my situation, to be patient with me, to go along. But sometimes, they have their own agenda too. They have their own goals, goals that most of the time I need to understand will not always align to my presence, meaning that if I don't keep up my pace, I'll be left out. I guess this is what adulting feels like.  " u can't forever stay there right? " " whats ur goal ? " " u need to do something to convince me. u gotta move up " " u need to increase ur pace, or else I dont know what u'll be in the future " Doubts, failed expectations and disappointments.  Some of u may think that maybe I should change my attitude, change the way I see, to see positivity in all things. I actually do see the good things, the good intentions behind the phrases mentioned above. But sometimes, do people th...
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COVID-19

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  Everything felt surreal when the pandemic began. The number of positive cases has increased, together with the high death toll and the full hospitals, with no more critical-care beds.  Social media are broadcasting news related to COVID-19 around all the time. This is exhausting and harms not only our emotions but our mental health as well. There's much panic, leaving us to feel like our lives have been reprogrammed. Most schools and universities around the world have closed to contain the spread of the virus as well as other establishments, including restaurants, bars, which are shut or temporarily closed. Transport and border restrictions are also increasingly apparent.  In our work environments, we have also experienced in hand sudden and drastic changes. With people working from home on an unprecedented scale, the increased use of digital platforms maintains activity and communication, and employees request leave not just for sickness but also for caring nee...
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Moving again.

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It's been 3 years since I decided not to finish my high school in Indonesia and moved to a community college in Washington. It was not an easy decision but I did it anyway. I knew the benefits I will get and now I don't have any regrets at all. As time passed by, it's already 2 years since I moved to Seattle and now I am in the final weeks of finishing my associate degree (D3 in Indonesia) and will be moving again to a university to finish my Bachelor's degree (S1) in Indiana University- Bloomington  this coming month. Seattle and its surroundings will be a place I will never forget. Lots of experiences and memories were made here during my time. Starting from volunteering in a local church for the first time, giving food to the homeless, joining an Indonesian student organization and becoming a public speaking coach at my college for a few months. And I am  grateful . Far beyond anything, I thanked God and my parents for the opportunity. At last, here we go ag...
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Hi I think I'm lost, can you show me the way to..

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Jeremiah 42:3 ~ " Pray that the Lord your God will tell us where we should go and what we should do " In roads, there are signs to help us to navigate our way so that we can reach our destination. But how do we choose the right one? There are numerous signs but there is only 1 of it that will direct us to our desired destination. You ask. Communication between God and you is the key, but sometimes communication is THE problem. People just doesn't have that grip of saying blatantly to God whereas actually God knows what we need, but we just need to ask for it. And I can safely to say that I experienced it, not once, but a few times. My communication with Him can sometimes be severely damaged with ego, disappointments the "forgot" things I have in life. But, I don't know if it's just me or not, as a person that already accepted Jesus as my savior and been baptized, in the end of the day my mind always redirects to Him.
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Leaving Footprints

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Leaving Footprints “In the history of the world, we have left our footprints by our unique stories.”  ―  Lailah Gifty Akita ,  Pearls of Wisdom: Great mind . At certain times in our life, the are moments and experiences that we personally felt was the best or worst times in life. It leaves memories and memories that are hard to forget are the ones that we usually felt/did for the first time in our life. What you don't realize sometimes is that it leaves footprints in our hearts, and those footprints are memories that you can simply recall back by just tracing back the steps you took, right from the beginning and until the end. And i agree, that we left our footprints by our unique stories. But in order to carry on with life, we must be able to respect the footprints and view them as something you are grateful for it to happened in your life, because then you will realize and understand, that God wanted you to feel and see those footprints so that you wil...
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